Actually, I do not love him

Today, I see a article on a book, in writing, I say: It is stupid for the person of feelings suicide. Commit suicide for feelings, the cruelty of being for self and kinsfolk, for negative heart person, however, it is momentary self-accusation, suicide is for the most clumsy means of negative heart person. Because, is willing and commit suicide for feelings person feature Si the person that guards , it is very little, even if commiting suicide again to be afraid of opposite side, temporarily for opposite side, it is meticulous , is also to grow " empty and member snake" however , is perfunctory temporarily well, is because is afraid of , instead of because of love. See these, I do not remember self unexpectedly, have been also stupid to pass once, if that night not think of pitiful old parents, not think of lovely young daughter, perhaps, I am now in another world. He has not oversteped the bounds , but I feel him, do not love me, I feel that work has no meaning . . . . . in the world.

Also blame since saying , since that want to die afterwards, I have changed , have changed a lot many. Because I find suddenly, I bitter beg him to change bitterly is impossible, it can only be so more bitter , only changes by oneself. Why want twelve point

Before, he goes home in the evening very much in night, I sleep not , insist to have him to home , I just sleep. He says that I have not used really, departure he sleeps not. He goes home very much in night, I not worry about him when outside do what bad thing, and it is his worrying safety. I believe him very much. I have gotten good vegetable, he likes the dishes eaten , and he does not have supper home, I will be angry , it is sorry. He when surface plays 3 more midnight, I can flow out tear, he has said me, I can flow out tear. I say him no matter I, do not love me , let me guard empty room. After going home , he hides mobile phone , dodge to dodge land receipt message posts a letter to cease , it is sad that I am angry very much. I think that he is having woman outside. May I do not utter a word , then, I buy mobile phone secretly , send disgusting short letter to him , see his reaction. I understand that man can change along with time and position.

Now, he returns very much in night, I have also been easy , am not sad. No matter he is to work overtime , is not to play , or soaks foot massage, or accompanying person, have coffee to chat , I pay no attention to. I make vegetable, he does not eat , my self eats a little more. It should be done that I am me. His mobile phone, I do not touch. Before he sleeps per night, will check assistant machine , clears away thing. I do not mind , I do not want to see , even if having , I also do not want to see. Why bother? I do not be that he does not accompany daughter and am sad, have sometimes or have , however, the more, sad the more self.

Actually, do I do not love him? Not, I still love him, as former the same love he. But it does not be the love of twelve point , the love of twelve point has had somewhat change have become to kiss feelings. Woman will very much like to put own happy happiness in own palm by oneself, instead of put in others palm, put in others palm, others is willing to give amount to amount.