After person peeks at diary, thinks of

Others pawns her surface

Though, this has already past matter 10 some years, they already do not remember perhaps. But it is for her , but is to hurt forever. Though along with the move of years, she does not hate that person who thinks of her diary , she knows him is because love her just this. However, she is injured heart already is hard to stroke to level. Because since then, she has also not written diary again.

That one year at the end of the year, she and one are named the boy acquaintance of China , then appearance love. However when they appearance the time of can't like one month. It is worked that China will leave her to go to another city. She does not give up , but also has no method to reserve him , also reserve do not live he, because their love just begins to have not gone to the share sacrificed for opposite side. So, they pass two places in two cities to send the life of lovesickness remotely. After he goes , in her time, works except going to work , is to write letter, mail the letter and receive letter , reads letter, it is facilitated so that then, telephone has no, write letter only. It is to write diary to still have , for him miss and lead along is good to write , it is rear that recalling them is acquainted , appearance a bit of love.

He goes , sink how long have gone to the time of celebrating the New Year. She decides originally with the person in home, celebrate the New Year do not go home , because she has returned once in first half of the year , has still brought younger sister. However, China can celebrate the New Year home, only home, she then can see him. Exactly younger sister also wants to go home , so, she decides to celebrate the New Year home. Before going home , she has told the matter of person about China in home. She is very earnest.

Go home after, she has seen China. Return in certain day according to have queued up China to her home to come, let her household see. Her father has asked about the condition of China home before she has not gone to home. Say: Boy moral standing is still good , has not been formally worked merely , although is county town, but in home, it is very poor, is still not as good as her home. Because of at that time her father is a small towns of her town Qi the responsible person that comes , though in home, it is not rich , but return may.

China comes together with one of her female classmate her home. This classmate woman is in county town , is good with her, feelings same sisters, before, often come to her home to play. So, neighbor will not think that China is her boy friend , will not also make carding comments. Want not? If have become not bad, if have not become , the mouth of those neighbors adds oil to add vinegar land do not know the what shape of saying. The mouth of person is most difficult to be in charge of , is also most fearful.

After having seen China, parents say: Return may, as you have known some months, there is also feelings calling him home ask person to come to talk about a marriage. Want "formal wedding" to be just all right. " is not? We return not know very much " she says for mother. " is still not enough to know? , are you that to know how many years? Others introduction just see 1 or 2 surface order have kissed " mother says. " do not be all right , do not be all right , still know " she says. Actually, she still has a reason to sink to say, is China home disagrees on their association. Because she is countryside residence registration. When he says his elder brother, the girl who has delivered a countryside residence registration has very good feelings , gives unexpectedly by his father to break. Therefore his elder brother for him father is angry very much. So, he says that his matter is not urgent , will come slowly. After part time, tell parents again. She understands that his parents have known that is already giving him pressure, but he does not miss her, is sorry just. Because his younger sister works together with her, his younger sister can surely tell parents his matter.

However, her father does not reply. Say: Must call him home talk about a marriage , then, ordering have kissed to make outside job hunting again. Want not you break off relationship to go. Boy has delivered girl friend, which have do not say with the person in home, he surely deceives you. " is not, he deceives me. He has his reason " she says. Why can she believe that he deceives her? " reason? What reason? " father says. She has no method, have to say his domestic suspicion truthfully she is countryside residence registration the reason of disagreeing on. This may offend father to be angry. " I do not dislike his home is poor, he still dislikes my countryside residence registration , seeks town with my relation with the condition of yourself, there is formal work, seek very well. You have broken still. " she has not said what, she wants to wait only. She does not believe that China can deceive her.

However, etc. come is another person for her injury. If say that father forces her and China to part , it is a kind of injury , disagrees on if saying China home to be a kind of injury for her, these injuries has no for her, she only China her love heart does not change , she may try hard , may strive for , may wait , , , however additionally a kind of injury, she for this kind of injury is to be unable to help , it is not thought of also that she has a dream.

When she goes home , also bringing

One day, she goes to county town to seek that better classmate , play. Have not played together for quite a long time. Classmate works in county town. Former when school reading, she regular when classmate lives in. The parents of classmate are good for her , do not know house reason afterwards, two adult relations also do not have been wrong. When she goes out , says with mother that evening does not be gone home , when classmate lives in. Mother has replied.

In daytime, she and classmate still have China , still have the friend of classmate to play together. Have decided to still play meeting in the evening together. Result, she is classmate home has supper, her father rides bicycle, say that have no time to call her to go home. As soon as she sees the arrival of father, knows that is far from good, laying aside bowl at once to run have made domestic classmate. The parents of classmate reserve her to eat over meal and then go. She which have thought to eat. China is still being waiting outside, she will tell him that she will go home.

After having said, one of her person goes without force on street, go to which street also no matter, anyway, it is to go to the direction of home, anyway, father can catch up her. Father keeps pace with her , monster she has not waited for until he goes out together, harm he has sought for quite a long time. She is always being silent.

Return to home. Mother already half lie to watch television on bed, sister-in-law etc. watch television in room. Father sits , lets her to also sit , then takes the same thing. Day, it is her beloved diary. She wants to run to pass really, is a to snatch. However, have not used , she knows that father has seen the content of inside , so returns from just go to seek her. Her heart is hated well, it is not as this as protective good diary to hate self. When last night, she writes diary, younger sister advises her to do not write , is original, she knows that father has seen. Father turns diary is a page of to have thought of , pawn her surface, pawning the surface of sister-in-law have thought of to get up. Her heart when drop blood, she itches to ground split seam to let her get into to go in , she feels that own heart has been to present stark nakedly in front of others. Father , why do you want such cruelty? As, it is cruel. This than one of dozen she, scold one of her still cruel 100 times, 1000 times and 10 thousand times. However, her what also can not do, she only flows out tear quietly , goes quietly. Then diary has returned to her is on hand, then she quietly side flows out tear, a Zhang Di of side tears , , , she wants to leave domestic this one immediately, however she can not, because so, parents meeting is sad, , , she will wait vacation still rapid finish and leaves home together with younger sister. Hereafter in few days, she has also not made door , has also selected silence.

She does not understand father why want is so for her? She has

Second day, mother sees her to cry swelling eye says: Your pa is so, I let him to do not see , it is to not hear to do not think of him. He sees that you are so dark and so thin , thinks that you are deceived by China , have hit fetus. She has not made sound. She need not say what. Her is to feel that is grieved. When others does not believe , again how explanation has not used. She dark she thin is because she has just gone up one month all night class, and stomach is also not comfortable, add again to go home on the road the hindrance vehicle of the 3 nights of 3 days. Her comes to understand parents so do not trust own daughter, she real very cardialgia. Father for her, this kind of injury is cruel really.

In few days of home, she has not always spoken what words with father. In the 9 first mornings of first month of the lunar year, she has gotten up early, she knows that China has long left home very much in 9 first mornings. She will go to send him. " he goes today, I send him " she says for mother, also no matter mother answers do not promise that she has gone. In second day, she has also left home. It is parted that afterwards, father has written a lot of letter still to advise her in, spoken language still has do not trust , or having her, dozen passes the meaning of fetus. Day , is she so for dozen to pass fetus and father , and can change what?

She and China have insisted to have married for 3 years , at last. China has staied in that city for some months have returned to her side. After returning , have always not left her. They do not go to work together, they live in each dormitory each. But they see surface every day, also have many opportunities only place, however they no the more thunder pool half step. She says that she wants to let her father know that she is a good daughter , can compete reputation to him, can reserve happiness to self good daughter.

Marriage after, old public say for her, it is also that he has changed others well, have long do not wait. Yes, it has good him. This is love, love a person , is to let a one happy. However, it is this kind of to like , there are how many sad tears in this kind of happy behind. Have only him and her to know.