Daughter returns every day to ask " mother, papa today returns do not return " she asks to return do not return to have supper. If I reply " return ", she has very happy meeting, if reply " do not return ", she has very disappointed meeting. Is also , although is old and public with our mother woman is when a same city, however, we are few together. In the morning, daughter has not woken up , he has gone. In the evening, daughter has slept , he just returns. I get up if being not morning to get breakfast , eat to him, or I like to sleep , is lazy to feel , I morning is also sleeping , if return from not wait for him in the evening, I have also slept. Our few talks. So, we do not know at all that opposite side is thinking of some what , is doing some what.
As him per week in 7 days, 3 evenings may be had meal at home , are also Saturday, in evening of day, it is one day in the issue in that 5 days to still have. If have , that shows mercy especially. Before, I think always that he is busy work, afterwards, I know that is not. Because he returns good night, busy work will not return is so late. It can feel very silly, very hollow if he stays at home. If take needle blanket, seem his heart not is the same at home. I joke always to say is not have thorn on the chair in home. If can let he well, quietness see that television is not bad and some, however, I can let him see , daughter can not, because daughter will play game with him. And would not most play with daughter, discuss daughter plays is really tired. But he really loves daughter very much , spoils daughter very much, regular for me for daughter " not good " cannot pass with me. I say that I am also not stepmother, I why is not good for daughter, daughter is the meat that drops with me, I have no reason, is not good for her. He for daughter is good, for the love of daughter close spoil. It is to have been done breakage on the matter of daughter that our feelings has a lot. Sometimes, I feel that am very not worth. But I will again take the responsibility for daughter. He often says that I eat the vinegar of daughter. I am not to eat the vinegar of daughter. I feel him to have no necessity , put daughter in the first place , and should put the feelings of husband and wife in the first place. And he is always because daughter hurts me , is really injury.
In his heart, I am his wife, he need not want and is the same for others, speak to think that say that is to want to say that say , no matter that words are unpleasant. Wanting to be angry is angry , having given birth is all right afterwards. I say that I am his wife, but I am first personal, the most minimum respect for person should give me. Sometimes, he says that I am sad , but he does not know to say, what, do not know that I am what and sad. I say , same a word, he says for others that others is angry merely , and will not be sad. Because of him and others have no relation. And it is sad to say for me that I am not only life , am , because of him is my old is public. May he says , incorrect, in front of others, he will notice image to notice relation. And in front of me, have not used. Perhaps this is a man is tired, when surface is very tired, think in domestic relax, however, woman is willing to but not want to get injury to man relax. Is not is heart is too sensitive?
He has few days to sink , have supper home , former I do not know current production progress and quality do not want him follow enter , so, I think that he wants busy work, I have known former part time, for him, have not had supper home in few days, I do not understand. Daughter asks me " mother, why does papa always do not have meal home? " I say " do not know " I really do not know. I also want to know very much. So, I when do meal, I have sent one message to him: I do not know you when outside do what. My is to remind you: Your life in not have only work with colleague. What is most important, you should be clear. Really, I feel that work is no doubt important, however family sometimes is more important than work. Still have for a child, the common education of two parents persons can be best, the gentle father who can have mother just, there can be the wisdom of two persons. However, he thinks always that educational daughter is the matter of one of my person, he offers cost only trip. Also is he makes money only trip. Sometimes, I say that he has made work only as those persons that have not married , have wages to take trip , other what matters need not be concerned. He smiles. Ai . . . . ..
Actually, he attends to home very much, but he does not love home , allegedly, he is colored foot cat since childhood, at home stay do not live. Actually, he loves our mother woman very much, but he does not be willing to spend time colored energy , accompany our mother woman. Sometimes, he is because fear that daughter tangles him , and does not go home. I do not understand. It is not that he has not still grown up. Is not is he is already old. Is not is I am not gentle , it is not virtuous , can not give him home is sweet?
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