The name of weak person shouts: Zero personality

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Some of uncle and uncle who wants to describe me , some of again put to begin to write. Though, uncle uncle leaves world having 10 some times , but is always a stone that presses on my mind for his writing memorial. My mood can not condense throughout, can not make the appraisement of a fairness along the road of memory for uncle uncle. Today, I have quiet time at last to make this article:

My uncle uncle stature has not large head carefully high, head Jing is not thick , a pair of slippery slide eye is disproportional with his good-natured lip. In 1932 being born in Jiangsu Gao You a landlord family, is five years older than my father. At the time of primary school, have thought of some books, have gone to junior high Zhui have studied , have nothing to do on day , mix mark with the sons and younger brothers of rich household together. In 1949, liberation army has hit the Yangtze River time produced and has come. Relying on own petty trick to get rich to become rich become the uncle uncle of a village landlord to kiss ( also is my grandfather) feel that state of affairs is far from good, fear those peasants that have received to exploit to seek him finally Zhang, it is gone to that so, decision brings uncle uncle to flee to Taiwan. Not want to hold neighbor in that day bring uncle uncle after arranging well my father to arrive quay hurriedly. Right now, finally a class passenger ship is spiting out thick smoke, runing slowly is away from quay. Looking over go passenger ship, grandfather faces upward a head to sigh , says:"Day wants"Pawn night, grandfather hangs under a old tree of Chinese Scholar Tree of village mouth to die. The next day, liberation army has hit over , has given peasant the field all minutes that grandfather leaves. In the peasant that feels proud and elated rushes grandfather home, they will make well the sewed ancient book as well as family expense notebook all temperatures that a torch grandfather collects at one go to fall.

Tile-roofed house had been confiscated , ox had been confiscated , tenant goes home , my Li Jia is since then ruined. Have a bad time , uncle uncle and my father arrive Shanghai alone. Having gone to Shanghai can't seek work one o'clock, father rubs leather shoes on street to person to gain little money. And uncle uncle would not do this work, he is idle about to have spoilt , wants to how to get rich , pass a kind of comfortable comfortable time always.

Get rich way can't seek , uncle uncle beginning little feel is little to take , it is not cheap to take. If want to let him to steal to snatch , have no this courage. Uncle uncle this kind of do not engage in the behavior of regular occupation to become the object of government Strike-Hard very quickly, his quilt without feelings Lao religion. Lao after religion comes out , can't always seek work , loaf about as before on society , lean father in the meager income in hair-cut shop to live. Afterwards through the relation of fellow villager, have entered the first food shop of city. Uncle uncle knows this work come from do not be easy , make an effort very much , also treasure very much, working expression is outstanding.

Have not thought that good time is not long, government will mobilize a batch of person to go home town kind field. Good-natured honest uncle uncle had been led to call the roll , has become the first batch of object that returns to homeland. He does not want to return native land, have been arranged to go to Jiangsu plentiful farm. As far as his only weak body is concerned, it is not the material of next field, farm lead arranges him reasonablely, work in dining room.

In uncle uncle bone son, the honest a few of cunning persons in dining room have heart to bully him , what heavy work and dirty confused work let him come to do. For this, uncle uncle always one not Ken land carry , then, is completed slowly. Is not good because of uncle uncle stomach, eat do not spoil the hard rice in dining room, let my father send the surface of examination paper from Shanghai to pass. Every month will be sent one time. In the course of time, the meal ticket in dining room can't use , is a lot of. It is this to not want to trouble. The person in group informs to lead , says that he illegallies take the meal ticket in dining room. Lead opens his drawer , finds out a lot of meal tickets really. This takes off , uncle uncle has mouth to say that do not settle , it is ruthlessly whole by villain.

Uncle uncle is single Han, he most likes to go to Shanghai, each error 3 years have once to visit relative opportunity. And since going to Shanghai every time, he always wraps parcel. My domestic neighbor of next door still thinks countryside person is runing"Help"! Thing nobody that actually squeezes in in pack can guess. It is the dirty sock that will be washed completely , dirty clothing and dirty quilt. Bitter mother, as soon as he comes , mother will have the clothing of few foot barrels to wash. The first barrel of water washed is always that ink dark ink is dark.

It can say that is perfectly clear , and will not also make mistake on date if the memory of uncle uncle is specially good , comes to the matter of Shanghai for some years. He has obvious shortcoming, namely words Lu Su. Also, a word of content will say one day that goes to ten times eight times , lets one to have heard livelihood to be disgusted. His biggest delight is to turn the big cabinet little cabinet in home when liking to take advantage of us to go to work in, drawer has goods one does not leak land inspection passes. He has this hobby, goods are made by what brand and what place, look over do not forget , a sentence will not also answer mistake. Often I what thing can't seek one o'clock, so long as asking him to allow , can solve. I am always thinking , he does intelligence work is most suitable however , and doing dining room to work real feel wronged too he.

Afterwards, in farm, a widow has liked uncle uncle , fawns on him everywhere , wants to form marriage with him. It may be again a dozen of to hear , it may go splendidly if this single Han has except Shanghai to kiss younger brother , other has no the place of glisten point. Widow feels own dozen wrong wishful thinking, it is well a burst that having also received this heart have altered this mouth , harm my uncle uncle unrequited love.

< xml:namespace prefix=st1 ns="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags"/>< chsdate w:st=on isrocdate=False islunardate=False day=9 month=11 year=1991>November 9< chsdate/>, uncle uncle end because of long-term malnutrition, raw disease has died. Now, from his 60 big lives, still lack so some weeks. Single person has no costly thing in dormitory, it is old to cannot bear that all appliance of daily life looks. He still stores in unit have the first money more than 4000, together with the unit subsidy of funeral arrangement, is used to manage funeral arrangement exactly.

Uncle uncle has so gone , what has not also left , even has no a photograph. May his shadow prints always clearly in my brain. This is nobody of a tragedy, a lifetime no big happiness may to common people level speech, it may incline to other person to state if a lifetime has no pain also. Mental world is numb to cannot bear , make him have become a person of the weakness that has no personality long ago. Do not deny , have yearned for happiness at his young time. But because of the problem of family background, make him receive discrimination fully , can't get deserved treatment. It is turbulent that ruthless realistic society brings one political sport spring tide and come , have deprived his one and another beautiful dream actually. The breakage of dream, the death of soul, this is not only a tragedy of his individual , is also a tragedy of this society also. He only is a silent epitome in this social tragedy has dismissed.

I make this writing , die to have no uncle uncle of personality and stand in silent tribute to deliver to mourn; Also have no soul in the world for this , have no happiness and pain may speech, returning weakly alive person feel a burst and ashamed. Weakness is the weak pass of person, also is weak person last trend the road of natural end have no speech vindication. The name of weak person shouts:"Zero". Personality