Sunday, February 24, 2008

On love," Kai-Di" is not not special for me to use feelings

" Kai-Di" " Kai

Is taking " Zheng comment and hot attention " as characteristic the website " Kai-Di network", on internet, enjoy certain popularity. It has gathered together the elite past master of home and overseas, especially the program of " cultural scattered theory " with not astonishing look, is strong opponent such as cloud, good writing sprays often is thin happen , it is distinctive , shake to fear popular feeling. From this, love this program , and is taking this window as ideological alternating platform have will personages, even more keep pouring in from 5 lake the whole worlds and south and north of Long Rivers , give own real knowledge and deep insight.

There, I have seen a beautiful cloud seemingly the writing heaven that melts with bright and beautiful sky. Have to visit person when this can find those breath that had known by oneself, this breath again is own in former days fresh dream is dripping wet to reappear; Leting visit person to feel that self is standing on high mountain look down at downward, the feeling that a kind of dream livelihood spends is rising and jumping.

The sky of internet is beautiful it is beautiful to be born with the splendid program " cultural scattered theory" in this between and splendid. However, 20 some years ago, writing fan wants to look for such a heaven but elephant comes out probably for day, say nonsense. Then, the position that writing fan has been allowed to exchange openly is nearly zero, want writing to exchange to only go to the road of folk. Composition is sacred , have unexpectedly a kind of criminal sense companion breed , does this article how to let one to relieve trick to write?

Remember beginning of 80 decade, I when wealth meeting professional school reading, have managed a magazine of handwritten copy alone , take " name Jing thunder ". Then just Feng the student of some of Beijing universities personal manage "today" to wait for that nongovernmental publication had been closed down , the central of publicity department of outgoing message asks every unit strict, check on , can not relax for youth the ideological education of generation. Though, my magazine has very little influence, but guidance teacher seeks me still to talk , lets me turn off engine.

Graduate into factory, nobody may be in charge of me. My hand has again itched , hobby is being ready to move. One of my person has again done a magazine called "bud". This time, it is high-grade , does mimeograph publication. To print , I have bought wax paper, stylus and iron plate from stationery shop , at the same time buy the silk screen with a printing special.

Print for the first time to have no experience , read the novel book " red rock", inside introduces only how Chongqing underground party does " push forward newspaper " to move about , have not written how to print specifically. The brand of tree peony bought has too thick printing ink, I pour the sesame oil in kitchen to go in to dilute. Though come out each publication breaks up fragrant fragrance, but script effect looks , is non-sharpness. Go through the direction of past master afterwards, should just add petrol in clear printing ink to dilute just as.

Then the place in home is little, every time Indian publication in between stove go on. Late at night, family person has slept to just go on. When printing , petrol taste is very thick , influences the sleep of same family, I close Fang Men. And as soon as Fang Men closes , in room, does not ventilate , it does not be been all right also that time has grown , I have to will Fang Men switch. This kind of feeling than do underground party work still is tired.

Handle very tired heart as to those Indian bad papers, throw the masses who a little do not rest assured in rubbish can and fear to have been had highly political consciousness to consider as to discover reactionary leaflet to relevant department report. Helplessness in, I have to count a fire in rubbish can. Anyway, late at night person is quiet, nobody can notice my ghost evil spirit. It is to have smelt the smoke taste emited in rubbish can, I flee long ago to go home.

After being printed , publication still binds. Bookbinding work is also tired, the paper of tape oil gas does not hear my finger to order. I run in pharmacy, buy one to pay transparent sticky gloves , cut forefinger place a cover, put on on forefinger, paper this just obeies my finger commander , working efficiency has also risen at the same time right off a lot. Say by the gloves cutIt is still noisy to pass a joke. It doesAsk me persistently..

After publication bookbinding becomes volume, I choose a part of printing, is fresh and cool to wrap with kraft, through post office, send to go classmate that studies in other places , let them circulate again separately. Though, my publication has no deep ideological expression, but receive still very much to read person like.

Now, say now. On internet, it is quiet that this writing and my mood are always hard. I can not calmness and announce calmly for glancing over my article person, say in sacrifice and the various effort of making originally to establish writing alternating position that self has no to regret. After all, this tries hard two words to consume to go my most valuable time in youthful times He!

Finally, I want to say: " have 'He Xun'

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