Some days ago a evening, the night stall at home, I with a middle-aged man that 50 years old does not go to same table, chat one, there are gains very much. It is average that this man sees similar looks, language is not astonishing. Unemployment looks mood or good drop in domestic many years.
Under a bottle of ice beer, stomach and that man language begin to get up. I and he mention glory , already process goes that a song of triumph the times that rise from all around; Also mention that have let us excited and difficult sleep " struggle lifelong " dream. We discover unexpectedly together: Though, dream is distant like, is but still that is clear, cordial.
It is fierce to drink a big cup, that unemployment man lifts beginning, sight picul " I, to have no dream of that 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen' on mind , it is joyful. There is this dream, it is heavy that I bear He! "
Unemployment man is more few of year-old than me, also is same age. Right now, I am very good at understanding him to say the meaning of this words. " I ", should say here that represent that times we. People will ask perhaps: Why will throw away past history, for the struggle of yesterday, does lifelong dream carry out once to betray on the contrary?
Row Ning say: " forget that passing is to signify
Unemployment man says suddenly: " remember for more than 20 years is former, a word of 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen' is always the tulip on our acting spirit of popular feeling that one blooms. It as if a magnificent fond dream calls us cordially; Also encourage us as hawk Bo attack vast sky. Then, we day does not be afraid of land disobey. Disobey the black clouds under blue sky to roll in; It is overgrown with brambles to disobey mud; Disobey the rugged station rage of wild wind in the ends of the world to run wild; Disobey quite wild torrential rain is mad in the place of cape to rise; Disobey everything the difficulty that can be seen or can not be seen pours sea as row mountain to press to us to come over. Then, our error is the life of ordinary people, go with the mental discernment of god thought. We have buried the personal distracting thoughts and hobby that we have; The personal pursuit and self value that has us are castrated thoroughly, we think that this is a kind of life stove fiery pure expression of the green most beautiful extent reached. We also " this kind of struggle lifelong " the wealth that dream cannot get in our life; Regard as the unselfish proud dedication of life more.
Under the spiritual call of 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen', we have handed over us all. We have not only handed over the interests of self , have at the same time also handed over the faith of self; Have not only handed over the reason of self , have at the same time also handed over the feelings world of self. Have not only handed over dignity and the personality of self , have at the same time also handed over experience and the judgment of self. Our goal has only one , is to let this kind of spirit of 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen' radiate the strange lustre of 10 thousand on ordinary working post.
" however! " unemployment man again has next a a cup of wine, say: " however, when the spring tide of reform is turbulent, and when coming , we think , have read revolutionary shrewd ceremony theory deeply, it is still impossible to defend. What is most sad is that we construct with our all faithes get up that sacred get can not the again sacred spirit " struggle is lifelong", in front of this spring tide, cannot bear unexpectedly so to attack, it is military to can't break. Even that 'Gong Chang Ji Di' that unselfish dedication and infinity are praised by us, also go bankrupt overnight, then one again becomes in a twinkle the private enterprise that controls share. On the ruins of value system, we discover suddenly that self has staied in a cold and strange world. This world yesterday is so familiar and is cordial, become a and dazzling today and sad Wan the land of wilderness. Former days float at last as the passion of fiery combustion with wind Miao go. I really do not understand , the dream of that 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen' wanders about where have gone? How many not night of sleep; It is how many times gloomy and is happy; Return cheerful laugh and tear somewhat , is to burn because of this 4 words. It is painful! Pain and your name shout: The man with a lifelong struggle. "
Right now, unemployment man canthus sheds tear. He describes to have no mistake surely! Can not say is " struggle lifelong " dream harm get our night spermatorrhea. But it has influenced our mental world really. When we get it, we can not select , only accept firmly; When we lose it, our heart has been numb. Is this the unfortunate tragedy of our individual or a bent resounding tragedy of this society? The heart of unemployment man is sobing , believing that is quilt times Ship Zhi ruthlessness Zhan error can not a kind of heartbroken sound of firsthand account He!
Is turn for me to have said that I say: " yes! It is gone to gradually that now, the dream of 'Fen Dou Zhong Shen' brings the footsteps of its old days, have the fairy tale as the beauty like garland together with that times when we present vastly end. Everything has announced to pass , but we are still living, it is magnificent that we can not cherish the sun of yesterday and go. ' horses hoof steps to pour fresh flower , fresh flower holds the mad kiss of horses hoof. ' this is we Xuan show language. Though, our language does not be bold, but we want to make final effort still. No matter this kind of 'effort' belongs to struggle also Ba; Belong to 'extravagant hopes' also Ba, we accept as unavoidable. As a poet says , is good: ' if ocean is doomed to want decidedly sea wall, let have suffering pour into our heart , will go up if land is doomed , leting human select the peak of survival again. ' "
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