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Second 10 Zhang
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銆€ In market, fill the atmosphere before holiday everywhere, Christmas will soon arrive , there is still one week, father-in-law will come to China. Father-in-law will live in two months in China, this is first by me self home reception guest, mother has not died former home can not calculate me, current home though return not quite picture appearance, but I am a God , arrange to must concern by me specifically. I begin to arrange resident environment, because there are many persons, room needs new adjustment general layout. The volume of 6 persons is put , 3 room two halls surely have no problem in old society, but this is that the country that a international people make up and are concerned with is Russian, crow Ke-Lan. When homeland, there are Tianjin and Gansu in the province that is concerned with , everybody each is Zheng, moreover everybody has character. Husband has not good temper for young son, though, age differs43In year, it is from time to time contradictory to occur. There is once, play son musical instrument, young son makes trouble , husband says urgently with housekeeper: It can let him play again if you tell him that papa plays son one first. The young son of 3 years old hopes to have by oneself may last 9 days takes month, may take off 5 oceans to catch the ability of soft-shelled turtle. Elder son because of since childhood single own work, rare point since close. Father-in-law is amiable, but language is obstructed , probably his meal point that housekeeper does can not be eaten. However, have person common point like is quiet.
I am the only daughter of parents , am quiet, is the habit that I raise since childhood. Parents living , I also feel again that self is child, since no error dozen reasons the idea of home. It is made up that now, the people of 3 country sides need me to use the way of home , even if is the temporary effect of two months, need to also let everybody resident and comfortable, have guest to as the feeling that is. This is the intellectual game problem played in childhood seemingly. My head that says innermost thoughts and most does not grow in household management is a little big, disaster stops me also.
The elaborate design via two hours, housekeeper inclines feelings coordination, at last, see effect. Rise considerably no matter on sanitary index or on layout effect, than having before. Additionally, I plan the person in home into 4 groups, every group has self relative space. Is making up , thing assembles with kind, also do not want to skirt each, this scheme is masterpiece simply. I am the line that young son draws with wax crayon suddenly everywhere when appreciating masterpiece on the 4 wall walls in discovery drawing room , influence visual effect very much , whitewash a wall again to have no time. My brainwave one is moved before, seek elder son for some years with error , have done to form the pigment of traditional Chinese painting of piece , dilute with water , and find out father to be used in those years to write the two pens " come out cloud" of word , make conception slightly, when most severe one side polluted by young son wall goes up , have drawn a row of long bamboo forest , have with ink depth to deliver. On the other wall of both sides, one side has drawn a basin tree peony, having drawn a wintersweet. This is the basic level of my learning traditional Chinese painting of same year.
Arrange about having meal , this problem is relatively simple , is solved well. Basis national habit, I decision gives father-in-law preparation as far as possible somewhat he likes in crow Ke-Lan at home eat use food frequently, husband still does not matter. In daily life, family is same, is Chinese food mainly. In the past, elder son does not like the meal in home , eats McDonald's frequently , now already has half one year abroad, should change. Try to eat few days , and then solicit opinion , see whether needs divide groove to raise. Whole one day, my waist sour leg aches.
After people return , in shout home picture hotel in, arrive from room arrangement outside decoration, 11 nit-picks. And point out flatly that my artistic works have problem: It is not serious. Revise again, frame part alters to paste wall paper , cooperate with the campaign of Christmas , arrange to close up to lively point. I estimate that this scheme is enacted , in home, I will soon become nightclub. But no matter how to say , still grand point is good, this comes frequently in year I have grandness for the first time at home to go to meet the feeling of holiday. Write that is this , remember a sentence old saying: Thing has non person, this home has been not domestic that. Do not know that elder son makes what impressions. Now not only person has changed , it is changed also that company live to be accustomed to.
National Day
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Wife says , the Spring Festival , we invitation Sun Li in spouses come to home is a guest is how about? It is long time that you cooperate , no matter when do not be friend together. Moreover their husband and wife are so kind, we should express us is friendly.
I do not say what well, as wife so says , I have no objection. Though, I and Sa Sha contact the few loves of relying on him for Chinese culture, we have common language in a lot of aspects. Actually, I have long ago for them a kind of is deep to kiss feelings. This suggests as soon as wife puts forward , I extremely deep feeling, float to think that unite Pian.
Wife is a ordinary staff member, at that time, I am a little editor, we acquaintance sinks how long for love , have married. She, not is my juvenile time those person in dream. Between her forehead, no lilac worries to close , also indissoluble local conditions and customs even says that there is point, is not beautiful. Her family background soldier family, father is the 8 road soldiers of noncommissioned officer, mother is the soldier of the New Fourth Army. At the beginning I feel , her feelings is not so fine and smooth. However, her youth is lively , sunshine , is capable, sincere, not secular. Marrying live after having got child to become slowly, is busy , it is even hard. Child wants ourselves to bring , it is tired to work pretty, she also has no time again to play ball, skating and swimming. Last century80In times, in Chinese city, have some of family
After similar decade, I pass birthday. She has run in advance few shop, have bought a sweater to me. My one sees , is those open body, I do not like - - I feel that put on it to look some olds , what I want is that V-neck is those. Have no any argument, sweater gives have received to get up - - need not also argue , not is worth for. We still have a lot of matter to do: Who asks for leave to child to open the meeting of head of family, , , winter coal buy some time, , , unit adjusts level this time, , , the illness of mother, , , wait.
Have forgotten how long, it is seemingly two years! That time, she turns that sweater accidentally when puting wardrobe in order. She seems think loud land say: " this is your time after birthday I buy to you, have run at that time specially a lot of shop place! You have not worn . . . . . . " I am seized with terror to have lived , heart, shudder suddenly, eye is moist at the same time. She has not complained, had no and linked a silk, also have no; It is not hidden bitterness , has not criticized more. She Nan Nan land say this words, in sound, bring sigh only just. I paste that sweater before chest tightly , say: " I like , like very much really. " she, no excitement has not been brimming with tears , is to look at me soberly only, have ridiculed smile. I feel that this is the most beautiful smile on world.
How many years , this smile always carves seal on my heart. When my tired out time of cannot bear; Feel gloomy time; Downhearted time, will not from remember her smile autonomously. Now, dejected I meeting braces up slowly, mood will be also gotten up slowly well. Without resentment, have no to regret , this word has been often exaggerated to even distort. Yes, in our heart, there are love and love and is been by love so is beautiful. However, ask for or think always repayment, again often hide. At many times, we even query for liking arising. Pain and the pain of love are longed for and longed for , are great , deserve to be treasured. However what deserve to be treasured more is that have no those quietness beged and is flat. Passion surges , giving birth is away from die is other, it is love; Calmness is also love with An Xiang , and is more long.
Often, gloomy weather and desolate state of mind, after if wine is sad, can not speech says. Shudder , is actually instant only, such as raging fire; Sad and dreary is forever, similar river sobs forever unlimitedly. Between the mortal life of this turmoil, it is engaging in internal strife , deceives , cloud Jiao the society with deceitful wave goes up , finally a pure land when where? The perception of heart. Sunshine is warm with fresh breeze soothe , exist forever in the river of memory. Have lost , it is most beautiful forever; So long as having not lost , it is not best forever. As this, poet just sings that ice-cold spring forgotten. Even perception, also often also can only is afterwards. Treasure , people like to say that treasure always, treasure however have not existed always, it is fictitious forever. As we say , enjoyment is healthy. Healthy person can not enjoy health, it is health to can not even know what at all. Only patient just really knows that what is healthy. Healthy person may realize occasionally that it" is healthy" this word is beautiful and is valuable, but have not passed some minutes , will forget probably. Even, have health person is destroying and destroying health. This is the fatality that mankind can not change forever , is also the paradox that can not solve forever. Finally, do you leave what?
I believe that have only the love of two genuine women on world to pass me , am those male and female love. One is my wife, one is Sun Li. Perhaps, they are not beautiful , but they most move my thing but being common, that, is kind. My livelihood can not be a good man, though it is mine not hypocritical, what I give them is far not that their heart needs. My personality, have decided my relatively narrow, insufficient atmosphere. I like different woman , although am far from being romantic , but still have to covet to play the heart of son. For them, what I am more is to kiss feelings, this kisses feelings and love to often let me obscure. In my mind, surmount this kind of feelings have no so far.
I am the person of a relative contradiction - - the most of time is happiness; It may be regular and baffledly gloomy and Fen Men. This may be concerning my life experience. I am born in a ancient and conservative family , but pass teenager in desolate remote north, again in Gao Qiang of humiliation and cruelty Ai error youth, , , I am always searching , yearn for and love everything is beautiful; I again always feel a kind of lose is entangling me , I always do not good . . . . ..
Second 12 Zhang
Speak:.Alexander.Buddha La-Ji-Mi-Er-Luo
Papa comes to China for the first time, for having been the father-in-law of old Bolshevik, he is the feeling of green military uniform for the impression of Chinese , does not point at the clothing of Chinese completely , but is thought. Though Chinese goes to crow g orchid, the person that goes into business needs not to be few , but lacks throughout the quality on certain meaning that approved by European. Chinese likes public place loudly speak illness also let them so easily inference.
Have from120Kilometer road, two hours goes to home. All the way go up, papa looks with fixed eyes land the building that looks at roadside, I can feel that he is for the feelings of admiration of the accomplishment of Chinese reforming and opening up. It is a lot of that I do not introduce , papa will stay here for two months , has plenty of time to know.
Papa65In year, from university, graduate into unit, all the life has no departure to pass government enterprise , has no departure to pass shipbuilding career. He already is the technical authority of crow g orchid Nicholas Ye Fu in building a ship60Year , book should retirement he still quilt original unit stays on to guide technology. Is rarely having light free time. Luckily his body is very good, still take charge of the guidance work of a boxing learning class in free time.
When geting off , I
" capitalism! It has been complete and
" grandfather! You are good. " son shouts gladly. He has seen at last, never plan the grandson of surface, hold to kiss. I embrace Sun Li, it is very happy. Sun Li says that eats dumpling in the evening, housekeeper has stewed broth , prepares dumpling. This is to adopt Chinese and Western according to the suggestion of papa to join the France of eating of jade, it likes to fry to eat that I eat dumpling.
In second day, I bring papa to attend a business trade parliamentary opening ceremony. Meeting announces that is all to stand up , sings Chinese national anthem and The Internationale. Papa sings conscientiously with Russian, it is moist that my eye has a silk unexpectedly. Afterwards, papa says that is for me: " Chinese is mainly with group consciousness, we decide own behavior with individual consciousness. "
" papa, this and
" this is mood, the enthusiasm of heart, make me think
The road of drain pipe in home has spoilt , we have spent the RMB of 30 Yuan, have solved problem. What make papa be surprised endlessly is that: In China, the more, the big work of amount of labour, the bad work of hygiene condition and wages are the more low, this is nearly unimaginable in Europe. I in China decade , accustomed to seeing such things thing is too many.
" this is knowledge
" not! It has too many Chinese. " I do not hope to think in papa. Have said that I discover suddenly, some meaning goes up me already do not like to stand in the stand of China for westerner explanation voluntarily some phenomenons , this is just Sun Li to pass , often follow those mood expression when I conflict. I have been seemingly assimilated , can so speak insincerely.
The arrival of Sun Li for papa is very glad, complain continually with simple Russian with papa , accuse my form, meaning is to say that I am lazy. As a result, papa works constantly at home , mends the ceramic tile on wall , even does meal for housekeeper. Sun Li pats gladly to begin , bends to act like a spoiled child on papa shoulder. Old man lets her hold to faint. Papa faces return, have gone specially Sun Li the graveyard of parents sweeps a grave. Papa asks me: " you often come? "
I say: " Chinese separates some months will burn one paper money , call what Clear and Bright and ghost festival , send cold clothing, it is dry me to burn this paper work. " papa horse answers before to say: " this is should! "
Papa has lived since childhood independently. After the Second World War, German fascist is defeated , the grandmother that causes as German gets society go up person disdain. In a evening, grandfather had been therefore grabed , afterwards, return again from also having no. Young grandmother brings papa and uncle to live , it is big to raise them , let them study at university. Before uncle has died , is a chief engineer of railway system. I think , in generation of papa, person most understands the history before China. And it is limit person that I belong to.
Second 13 Zhang
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The love on genuine meaning is not passionate , but is to be indifferent. Actually, do you say that this is so called big sound rare sound , is liked without speech? Already two months has not seen Luo Si Yu. After meeting , mood is so and depressed unexpectedly, even happen Hu my own expectation.
In duration of the Spring Festival, children again have got own arrangement , should Luo Si Yu spouses invitation, we are two to agree a plate of mountain that arrives Tianjin Ji county , travel at last , are also holiday get-together.
We agree in the Tianjin Ji county1China in, tune head east, wheel just leaves saliva to surround highway , have walked in the crack of scenery. Green screen chain of mountains and green screen lake water shout La one takes off since is present to have rushed at , under foot, row is opened. Automobile is in the former trip on bent curved lakeside pitch road , gentle breeze slowly. Opening window north hope that have no to block , what suffer roadside is vast , is rich to have no the green screen lake of limit. Separating window south hope that is thick and shady to cover eye , rub automobile body is the green screen mountain of beautiful this ancient consistent Qing Chun. Road turns with water, mountain is all right with person, make popular feeling Kuang god is happy.
Blink between, turn to run to go3Kilometer and entire farming residence rush open by pitch highway. The farming house of village north is held by the lake water of dark green, the farming house of village south quilt green tree thick shade cover. Fix eyes one sees , lake water is green, road both side weeping willow is also green, green screen mountain is green. Fully, eye is green, green get the whole world, is so green that have no side, it is green to have no chink, it is green to become one body.
Get off after, two feet step into7Between take north south principal rooms, outside wall mounts fully snow-white ceramic tile, even if classifying in the ear room of affiliated building, it is also celadon shop front, the garden ground that foot even takes off is also paved by green stone , embellishes with colorful flowers and plants. Such farming residence, who does not think that it both is filled with modern civilization and contains ancient rhyme a custom left by a preceding generation fully?
Since entering house, sit on the fiery heatable brick bed of nice and warm, modern bedding. Enthusiastic hospitable host lets us have enjoyed " the meal of peasant family". Big carp, still just scatter net after being by room in green screen lake to hit to come up, include golden wing carp and big shrimp, these are steamed since jumping in lake into pot. The stool vegetable of needle shape and the mushroom of umbrella form , golden yellow Wo tape and the sweet potato of melon and red flesh the young soya bean of green skin, come down since green screen is now picked on mountain. Staple is the old corn of originality and new perfume , since pick mountain the treasure gruel of eight treasures boiled and the corn flour of fried dumpling Mo Mo, make person appetite drives. I both starve and am tired, must not attend to eat appearance, big mouth moves mouth.
Luo Si Yu takes wineglass slowly , says
" you drink less!
" my livelihood has special feelings for wine, having wine with friend even more open bosom. Unfortunately He! Now, there are few wine friends. " the expression that says him is clearly dim. Sa Sha takes wineglass , smiles to say: " I also come to drink is a cup of! " say that have done.
I lift up cup, have died
" Sa Sha, do you how to understand for 'scholar'? Say, our Chinese has a common knowledge for 'scholar'. Namely, they have common characteristic. You know me describe 'Gong Tong Te Dian' denotes what? " Si Ling so asks.
" 'scholar' and 'Wen Ren Qun Ti' are a kind of spiritual nobles, they have the thing of own exploration in thought field. Usually, they have responsibility and the thought of a kind of sense of responsibility and a kind of life essence. From this, they may neglect the survival meaning of realistic society. Have again, they are very supercilious, even if life situation is in dire straits very much, may they as before time error has to be very graceful. Their mental world is very rich, seemingly, it is invincible to have got these spiritual values. These persons often is incompatible with reality, have even gone to the final juncture with grieved life will not also look back. They resemble to light Miao Si of literature heaven holy fire , and resemble to discharge probably to be spellbound , till death not look back Luo rub; Resemble more to seem because of the bath of blood color and fall onto unfortunate mental patient, need social special taking care. "
" is too good as saying.
Sa Sha hears that praise seems interest, continuity says: " the difference of scholar and general person is responsibility, the responsibility of thinking. It is not definitely scholar to be not the responsibility of behavior , have the occupation of scholar, this is the view of my individual, not definitely whole as. "
" the scholar of China is taking ancient scholar doctor stratum as reference, their clothing meal has no worry, what wait upon to do writing, the chess painting and calligraphy of musical instrument and elegance is a kind of heart. Is the West also so? "
" is similar! Scholar should denote
" I feel your dialogue reach
In duration, I am always being silent , I feel that this kind of their communication has no meaning. In fact, I do not recognize this scholar stratum, so called scholar divides only with occupation. As to heart, painstakingly is graceful, however, it is the outcome of mood. Scholar is vulgar to lie in , at the time of be regard as scholar by oneself, have had no sense of responsibility. So called sense of responsibility is as from sex stick to , a kind of conceited arrogance actually petty and low Fen Ran. I have not said that I do not want to say.
Do not know why, this time meets with Luo Si Yu I feel dull suddenly, previous worship and collision some shadow has had no. I doubt that only is feelings haunt , have neglected for him when the knowledge of true meaning. When I once enter rational mood, will discover that he is so and selfish and it is vulgar. However, this may understand , is the characteristic that ordinary people has together and natural endowment just. Feelings can cover everything, especially not beautiful thing. I believe. Though as this, for have love, I think of as before, this is paradox perhaps.
" actually a lot of things stay on spiritual layer surface, having no essence the meaning of partition. " Luo Si Yu has found out my mood seemingly, suddenly, start to talk downheartedly to say that say.
" spiritual meaning is just most great. " Sa Sha
" what is spiritual go
" for example love.
" what is love? " Luo
" the person of love for maturation is a kind of complementary help, a kind of needs, rational needs. For young person, the pursuit of the ideal that is a kind of love includes human body and soul goes up. " Sa Sha says.
" I feel love is pure Ran is religious.
" I agreement. Love is relatively dimly discernible thing, the feelings of the men and women in reality often is mood melts a kind of reaction. From this, may conclude that this love thing is hard and long. The matter on world is often unreasonable , lets one to cannot bear. You, or she, very very excellence, however only negligence; Or it is careless; Or it is little to misunderstand; Or light wood Ne; Or slightly is obtuse as allowing; Or degree summary is deep and rash; Or certain meaning goes up is stubborn; Or is not the wrong judgment wanted , but have destroied a person , have destroied a lifetime of a person. Make sky no longer sunny; Flower does not be beautiful; The sun does not be bright , makes raw source exhausted. Why? Why will he or she be so? He, or why does she want negligence to be careless? Misunderstand , wood Ne , obtuse, rash, stubborn, judgment mistake? What is most important is that: We are why not can accept all these? I think , this in which reason is afraid is not complex , there is two layers mainly. First, poem the combination of illusory and creative thought, it is the characteristic of this kind of love. This kind of combination once the scout and judgment mixed into reason seek and look into , everything begins confusion to get up. If be this kind of and disorderly to occur , do not say person , is not clear for God of all-round to also say. Love is romantic forever, so-called romantic that must have feelings and the sentiment as some dream namely to deliver. Have the person who has gone through love to know , in this, 3 tastes are really 'Nan Yu Jun Shuo'. Love will have forever to surmount , will have the marvelous illusion like dreamland forever , is not love otherwise. Clearly friendship still have make love former mutual love attraction, it is absolutely not love! Get and lose , it is clever to select , is sensible and is not sensible to weigh , this is not love , is absolutely not! Love has some 'Wu Li Xing' , has some blindly and illusory. Only these natures make the very love have 'unfounded' of some degree. It is suitable that 'unfounded' goes to what degree , appropriateness? I do not know , is afraid also nobody describes to settle. However, what I will ask is , as 'make up' is self only; As we have not imposed others at the beginning , so all negligence wood Ne obtuse misunderstanding rash contain long ago in which , why are we stunned for their appearance endlessly? Again , we see and accept a lot, why once have gone to this kind of extent, do we insist to bang chest foot to be overwhelmed with sorrow? Philanthropic act may be misunderstood , may be distorted with good intention , can't get response sincerely probably; It is understood that your excellent your pains your achievement your feelings may be not known by neighbor, colleague, kinsfolk, superior and subordinate, your possible one has smiled. Why may you go to him or do not be all right with her? In poem, you know 'Shan Wai Qing Shan Lou Wai Lou', the west son lake of 'Dan Zhuang Nong Mo Zong Xiang Yi', once have realized her noisy smell the pungent stink of lake surface, you how to sink to jump down , go to die?To know , nobody has deceived you , is that yourself has deceived yourself. Actually, what is more is that ourselves imagine , more is the feeling of ourselves, more is the illusion of ourselves. Ourselves have created everything , weaveA infinite blazing infinite net with beautiful romantic infinity, have perhaps so one day between, suddenly you discovery, this has only ourselves originally in net. Has that two wry smiles , throw off to try again , not stay in inside etc. actually to die? Buddha is called it 'Yuan' , or 'chance'. There is destiny or not fated to , or feelings destiny has been let. However, is this 'Yuan' a kind of what thing? Actually is a kind of helplessness , self ridicule the subterfuge of, self release? Restrain or its real existence in Ming Ming, use cannot know come with fatality to carry out stipulation , make originally momentary and is not to be filled with the life of fresh flower forever more dark restrain or is more bright?
" have a kind of love perhaps, is doomed to will not have result. It is stupidity to advise a person to give up love and it is dirty. Advise own abandonment love to be also stupid and dirty. However, do not give up to signify that perplexed and wound pain is to can not dispel. Love is joyous forever , is also painful forever. Want if having person a kind of have not lost no wound pain has not hesitated no heartbeat no desperate love, that is also not thorough can not in keep with one's wish, however, what he get have more low price relatively, quality also not too good love - - low-priced forgery. Retreat beg also do not lose secondly is a kind of choice, however, does he want? Is the wound that have no a kind of method actually to cure this awl heart painful? Have certainly, certainly. That is time.
" still remember that we have been very familiar the verse forgotten long ago: ' when calmness , is dreary and have no side to have no the grassland of margin go up, gushing mysteriously flow out 3 note springs. A note is the spring of youth, it dodges silver light sends out Xuan sound is boiling and pouring; A note is the spring of poem, it has drunk those calm grasslands with the great waves of inspiration go up banish person; Finally a note is the ice-cold spring forgotten , it than everything more the gently moist coke of mind is thirsty. ' we eagerness gets love, our requirement is such simple, our desire and is so and beautiful, however, we often encounter cold reception; Heart, it is often bleeding. It is kind, pure yearning is always refused by ice-cold reality, we can do not injure bosom is sad and sad? However, everything is instant , everything will pass. Have passed , will become permanent think fondly of , , , when snowflake surrounds stove article in cold night floated on to fly Ming, recollections is a kind of enjoyment. Remember originally is grievously frightened and is extremely grieved, at that time we have not allowed meeting slightly a smile! A person, if can not the extent reached of taste 'He Dang Gong Jian Xi Chuang Zhu ,Que Hua Ba Shan Ye Yu Shi', can not realize the flavor of 'Ci Qing Ke Dai Cheng Zhui Yi ,Zhi Shi Dang Shi Yi Wang Ran', that he is far away from love still! "
" day! You this is giving
" understanding correctness. " the realization force of me for Luo Si Yu accepts still very much, but do not understand anyhow that he is always on actual practice and own knowledge is conflicting, I secretly shake to shake the head.
" drink bar! "
So, we lift cup again.
" sleep! Still travel tomorrow. " I do not want to have gone down moreover, have a kind of sentimental is corroding me. It is for Luo Si Yu , I breed first floor to hate Yi, but it is not very deep , is gentle basically. The thing that has felt relieved , is again chosen by subject. Do not say that have no meaning.
Each returns
Second 14 Zhang
Speak:.Alexander.Buddha La-Ji-Mi-Er-Luo
Actually, I am not as good as Russia for the impression of crow g orchid, perhaps is when the longer reason of Russian life time. Crow g orchid handle affairs low efficiency often lets me urgent have to spit out blood. They may be accustomed to this kind of rhythm that not slowed not tightly, but I can not suit long ago. By the trade of this, crow g orchid and China, is not that it is simple that I imagine.
Thank Er cover is that I know a earliest commercial partner, have passed four times to China. He understanding Chinese market product is rich, seek various customers by every possible means. Especially his son Ba Sha, they when the Chinese and company's name thorn that we register on arm, expression for China like. This has no person who passes China , will not have such feelings for Chinese market absolutely and and interest, include my younger brother. Chinese product may increase the price of 3 times in crow Ke-Lan to supply , this is the law imagination that crow g orchid retail dealer has no. Such business trade environment and business are not still very much done well, reason has only a aspect: Settlement problem. Chinese and crow g orchid person do not trust each other, crow g orchid person asks Chinese to deliver first, Chinese asks crow g orchid person to pay first, both sides refuse to budge. So, normal trade can not go on , have only Dao the person of pack may do little trade, we are in charge of this kind of person to call "shuttle". But they have gained money really, our trade, is Ji a full one, wait for list.
I understand the mood with beautiful grandson , but can not change this kind of fact. After the Spring Festival, I return to crow Ke-Lan , persuade customer continuously. They always unhurriedly Appearance De, let me very helpless. My heart feels anxious extremely, I do not want to let her so tired, I advise her to need not worry. As a result before coming to crow Ke-Lan, she tells me such a fact: She always when liability operation. She conceals me so many years, I am his husband, she does not say unexpectedly always. Do not know these years she how to come , certain meaning goes up , she has deceived me. May I have not thought that she so does not be easy , always so stand strongly. Suddenly, the pressure of a kind of sense of responsibility gushes to me, we need quiet and steady life.
" why do not tell me? " I have so asked her. She says that this is the company's debt before her , does not belong to the scope that I bear. She says no reason. Because we are same families. Woman is as the idea, of eastern and western of alive dependence man. The woman like her, I seldom see. Man is because of the woman that likes can just have responsibility, does she do not understand seemingly that this is some , are to want to be female strong person actually?
After I know this fact, I feel heavy
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Current crow g orchid is90Times. Then is in China , the spring tide of commodity economy Fen gush come , have enterprise to feel the arrival of business opportunity. For this, I am also such identification. I organize the enterprise of each profession to go to crow Ke-Lan to investigate , may gain some League membership dues on the one hand; Pass through batch on the other hand roll may solve the problem on fund. Through the investigation that brings enterprise , I know a lot of professional knowledges , have also known crow g orchid market further. A time, I have become the frequent visitor that goes to and back from in crow g orchid. Even so, but, the League membership dues gained are limited. Especially a batch of League membership dues have returned account, must next League membership dues horse goes up receive , hit time difference , will influence the arrangement of a group otherwise.
Having dozen time can't lack the record of position. That time, the air ticket of a group has been died surely , must be started. Otherwise all do not go it is dangerous as returning the ticket , return the ticket do not be all right , because of me then already the campaign of all money gives to peculate. No method must be gone to forcibly.
11 persons,90I can't draw out first airport construction fee. Early morning, big snow road, from Tianjin to Beijing, want 2 or 3 hours. I arrive very early , hide intentionally in one side, calling to them to say road do not go well, ask them to handle first into boundary formality, other matter meets moreover. After airplane takes off , I inhale one breath deeply.
Take being leaning the baseplate of window , is the feeling of mortal life short calmness, let me have seemingly right off a kind of is far away from. Come off plane airport will will be also to close. However, I have thought of easy to do France, as soon as big pile is enterprise boss mostly in person, go abroad will surely bring money. Who has brought amount, when entering boundary as soon as filling in and submitting barrier sheet, I will know. Have gone to crow Ke-Lan, it is taken off that all are in excited state, that is just me to borrow the hair of money opportunity. So long as I accomplish service to position, not worry can't reach purpose.
On airplane, I conserve energy , am leisure and comfortable. Airplane one hour before rapid landing, in I tell team true condition a colleague. She scares face white, say promptly: In " my pocket has only500U.S. dollar! " I have a well-thought-out
Result is to achieve what one wishes , all are glad. I volume borrow money word is also scientific, I say that to register a company in crow Ke-Lan, tape needs money back urgently. A company's boss will help me, have solved problem. This kind of matter is concerned with surface, can not be big , can only go on quietly.
Naturally, I recognize that matter this is very risky. Once by people, revealing , aftermath can not be imagined. Fear after the event really since now remembering. Also no wonder, it is reckless that person is really easy under having no condition of method. Now I, had better quiet wait, also absolute will not this. After all, credit is the foundation of enterprise survival. I can so straight go forward for years , am just the approval of some persons that lean. Otherwise, I jump eight times the opportunity of building may have. Now, say with it that rely on luck , have better to say that rely on being patient , it is to insist to be patient.
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Business sea is ruthless, but can practice ruthlessly to make strategy and the heart wisdom of a person. I have been so easy and credulous and boost , is frank. However business sea Bo attack , can embody the comprehensibility of a person for knack of doing business and the assurance for opportunity more. Somebody stints no effort empty feelings insincerity in competing , song Yi Feng go to meet , but eventually, purpose is to send system in person. When my life and business sea deliver to stumble the dictionary of mixture in, except love and responsibility and is indestructible to bear force, I hope most important a page of should be my strategy.
Is woman, I am always filled with generally to have great ambition Qi wish, or say , it can sketch out the blueprint of rivers and mountains if I hope to become , can again command the 1000 military horses of 10 thousand will just. I know , such splendid effect picture is not is the pursuit of one of my person artistic conception. If get its marrow, must overcome own heart circle is narrow and differentiate the fiery eye gold of the eye land of other person Jing, not letter calumny. So, the talent of discerning power is accurate. Reach bosom friend, afterwards, it is to realize the operation law of big environment , has mental discernment alone, first sound seizes person. Not seize resolutely dogmatically to high point , so ascend a height and recruit to know that.
It has had pretty a period, I often so think. Each insomnia is charged for being the once on spirit me. Just like remote mountains, avoid grain , since close to repair to refine. Get through the cave road of the whole body , discharge poison gas , let merit recovers. To be ideal, restrain or compare direct purpose - success, I have to will own mood invariable in the mental world of military Lin Zhang Men, not light heart slackness.
Business sea is ruthless. The only rule of the success of business circles is intelligence quotient , emotional intelligence quotient (EQ) and the composite index of contrary business climb liter and grandson art of war and the philosophy of Mao Zedong as well as thick dark study know thoroughly. Heroism, overlord air, cohesiveness and affinity. If this law door is passed through very, besides, the deep wound of bitter big hatred that goes through and can not forget is painful and is regreted. I discover , I already can not restore beautiful one side of that sentimental disposition woman. Dream has been far, feelings return when. I must control. As business sea woman, it is not only to make money , return in possess a rivers and mountains is a and proud as coming out first.
I do not know , it is living that still having how many persons on this world to resemble me so work hard. I have not selected , can not say that have no resentment to have no to regret; Can only say that deserve the punishment. I can only when in Yi think of self console: Fall in day take the charge of in this person, must its bitter heart wisdom, Lao Qi muscles and bones. It can experience completely to get if the whole taste of life has only the talent of sensitive life, no matter is in in bad circumstances.
The time universe of one day passes , resemble the pendulum of a machinery. Seek a livelihood and responsibility, to have no side bitterness while facing , in each night, it is hovering between life and death that I get own suffering , is completely transformed. Now, my heart can just feel to feel better somewhat, I think that this is accepting the punishment of original sin.
Crime and punish , old public come from foreign dozen long distance call, sound urges urgently I offer name soon the quotation of heavy ware spare and accessory parts. I do not know at all what toy weighing heavy ware is , company's person is also not large and clear. Moreover, I press root attend to come however this kind of trade, feel delay art and skill.
May he when telephone there still is half Ke land explanation,
Half minute pause is nearby to have no bird, to have estimate to flee , it is far. Luckily he has not thrown telephone, but it is to scare one to jump surely. For this, my heart some apologies Jiu. I explain , here how to is busy, business focal point how to is changing. He hears carefully , then replies flatly: " I think that I am clear! "
Lay aside telephone, I am thinking quietly, who can allow me to be so and so impolite? This possibility in the world has only my old is public. See to seem need not consider to accept forever do not accept me how to wanton person. He knows that I am tired, I trouble.
Is just tired and tired , need the conciliation that
Old public love, is constantly
Borrow international long-distance,
Love and marriage,
Have time I think frequently, old public is inflator;
Old is public to love me, old public beautiful
Happiness lies in assurance,
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